I Cheated On My Girlfriend — Here Are 15 Things I Wish I Had Known Beforehand

I used to say I'd never cheat on someone. And I truly believed that — until Charlie grabbed my face and I felt powerless. I didn't even hesitate before kissing her back. I didn't think twice. I couldn't have prepared myself for how easily it happened. If you're with someone hot, or you're turned on, or you have feelings, or even if you're just a human being with hormones, you're capable of cheating.

I never said anything to Gianna about what happened with Charlie. Even though we had a cute relationship, I knew deep down what I did was wrong. I had broken her trust. I got away with it, and honestly, I forgot it even happened. I thought that kiss would linger in the back of my mind, torturing me forever. But I was able to move on sooner than I had expected.

Obviously. If you have a conscience and you care about your partner, you'll really feel like sh*t. It can eat away at you.

I attribute my case to a temporary moment of poor judgment. Making a mistake or giving into attraction doesn’t mean that’s what you want all the time. I know that I, at my core, am tragically monogamous.

Maybe you’re just a horny AF person. And that’s fine. But why sneak around? If you’re open and honest about your desires, and your partner is a down-*ss b*tch, then you get all the hot and steamy sex without the side dish of guilt. Fabulous!

You might be reading this and thinking, she only made out with someone, that’s not cheating. This is why it’s so important to talk to your partners about your boundaries. Your partner might think flirting is cheating and you might think fingering isn’t cheating. Which is why you need to try this amazing new sex position called ~communication.~

Lesbians, listen to me: You might think it’s hot to hook up with a girl who has a boyfriend. But men are people, too (crazy, I know), and cheating is not a good look, no matter who you're doing it with. If the guy doesn't consider you hooking up with his girlfriend as infidelity, he doesn't see women as people. This has been a PSA brought to you by Carrie Lezshaw.

I’m calling bullshit on "once a cheater, always a cheater." Cheating might make you realize that you never want to do it again.

If you want to cheat on your partner, you aren’t happy. Point blank. Stop lying to yourself.

You have cheated. It’s a part of you. And it can change how you view yourself. Maybe you'll make different choices from here on out, or maybe you'll treat yourself with more kindness and forgiveness, or maybe you'll put a hold on seeking a relationship until you're in a better place.

And then after that honesty, you might spiral into a pit of anxiety worrying that your partner won’t trust you now. I know, it sucks.

Then you’ll start to spiral even more and wonder if you will cheat again, even if you're sure you wouldn't. Yeah, this sh*t isn’t fun. Don’t cheat, kids.

You have to be prepared for your next partner to ask you that inevitable pillow-talk question. If you’re like me and don’t consider yourself a cheater, be prepared for your knee-jerk response to be denial — but if you truly want emotional intimacy with that person, you'll need to come clean.

If you’ve been cheated on, then you know how f*cking bad it hurts. But try to remember that you’ve done the same thing. And find the humanity in the person who hurt you. We all f*ck up.

I used to think cheaters were the scum of the earth. And, yes, cheating is bad. But life is messy. Relationships are messy. Desire is messy. At the end of the day, we are all just messy b*tches all trying to make sense of life together. Don’t let one mistake define you. But don’t do it again. Then you’re just an assh*le.

*Name has been changed.

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